April 7, 2022

I’m back

The SEA SALT Uncategorized 2 Comments

The last two years kind of knocked the wind out of me. I’m sure a lot of you feel that way. 

I’ve had a really hard time being creative. It just felt like it wasn’t important in the grand scheme of things. This just seemed like fluff. Too light, and insignificant. How can coming up with a recipe for a lettuce cup be important in the middle of a worldwide pandemic? Then I lost my Mom to breast cancer, and I had a pretty horrible miscarriage. 

I still cooked a ton. But I cooked other people’s recipes. Cooking from a recipe felt like something stable to me, like I could kind of lose myself in following instructions or checking off boxes. Nothing vulnerable. 

I realized the other day that I was waiting for things to go back to how they were before I started up here again. Or maybe I was waiting for enough time to pass for me to have forgotten. I’m not going to forget. I’m changed and this is how I am now. I cry when I see my Mom’s handwriting. I have a feeling of panic when I see a black and white ultrasound. But I also love Miles more than I have ever loved him and I’m closer with my Dad. I can relate to people who are grieving, or at least I can understand a small part of what they’re going through. I’ve changed and grown. 

Being creative here is important to me and to you, despite what else might be going on. While I was gone I was still receiving comments regularly about my recipes. People were still reaching out to me asking for vegetarian meal recommendations. I like being a source of inspiration, and I like to share what I know in order to better your eating. I think sometimes I sell myself short on how much I really know, and how skilled of a chef I am. I also like doing this for me. This is an important part of who I am, and a collection of my ideas and thoughts from the past 8 years. 

I’m planning to come back full force. I want to make my recipes more simple for you guys. I want to add recipes more often. 

Thanks for being here and sorry I disappeared. I appreciate you.